Kassi Martin's Blog
Power In My Expression of Sadness - an exploration
How are you doing?
I've been busy of late getting three new online art classes ready to release. I feel so lucky to work in ways which fulfill me.
Today I have another beautiful Exploration for you to read. I really enjoyed spending time exploring with Tracy Algar, Intuitive Artist, her links are at the end. I hope you enjoy reading what unfolded.
Kassi: Welcome Tracy. I've looked at your painting a number of times. It feels very powerful and draws my attention. I just wondered if you would like to say anything about how you feel as you look at your painting?
Tracy: It feels sad
Kassi: The painting feels sad?
Tracy: Yes, the painting feels sad. I feel somehow empowered by it.
Kassi: Would you like to say something about how you feel empowered?
Tracy: Like there is some power in my expression of sadness. the images, especially the horned beast, he makes me feel strong.
Kassi: When you look at him, is there any particular part of him that is most prominent?
Tracy: His teeth are most prominent.
Kassi: Can I ask how you feel as you look at his teeth?
Tracy: The only way I can describe it is as powerful and safe.
Kassi: I'm wondering if you feel comfortable if I invite you to check out sensations or feelings in your body? I guess I'm wondering 'where' you receive the info "powerful and safe"? If you get signals in your body as you look at his teeth for example.
Tracy: In the centre of my chest.
Kassi: Are you ok if stay with the body feeling?
Kassi: I'm wondering what the feeling is like in the centre of your chest as you look at his teeth?
Kassi: Expansive like.... ? Like an ocean? The sky?
Tracy: Like breathing in the Universe.
Kassi: Wow! That sounds pretty amazing to me... how does it feel for you?
Tracy: It's a good feeling.
Kassi: I'm wondering if this could be a "resource" for you if ever you need to feel empowered? By looking at his teeth or bringing them to mind, you could then experience that amazing feeling in your chest?
Tracy: Yes, that's a good idea. I can liken the feeling to the way I feel when I gaze at the mountains.
Kassi: Oh beautiful! I believe having these kind of "anchors" is such a super Resource for us to call on at Will. I'm so glad to know you have this Tracy. Can I just check in with you... how is this going for you?
Tracy: Fine thanks Kassi. Interested to see where it's going. Already surprised by my feelings about it.
Kassi: Surprised in a good way?
Tracy: Yes, a good way.
Kassi: I am wondering if you would like to say anything about the sadness you mentioned or perhaps prefer not to?
Tracy: I recognise the sadness in the tears, they are tears of loss.
Kassi: I am sad to read of your loss Tracy... at the same time I feel glad that you can express your sadness through your art... is there anything you would like to or need to share about your sadness?
Tracy: Not at this time.I still need to find the lost thing.
Kassi: Sure... is "the lost thing" something you are searching for?
Tracy: It's something that has been lost for a long time, I've only just realised that I'm looking for it.
Kassi: I feel an interest in me to accompany you in your "search" however, you may not be ready to Know about it yet? I imagine that this is something only you will have the answer to Tracy. I am happy to take a step back if you prefer...
Tracy: I think I need some time to digest how I feel about the painting. This is so interesting. It's giving me some Clues to mull over.
Kassi: Shall we go back to look at your painting? Could I ask a question or two? Unless this feels "enough"?
Tracy: Sure you can ask some questions.
Kassi: If you look at your painting, I'm wondering where your eyes settle first?
Tracy: The horned beast at the top.
Kassi: and after him? Unless there is more to say after his "teeth"? He is a magnificent Horned Beast.
Tracy: After him, the bird. I wanted it to be a Crow, but it insisted on being a Penguin.
Kassi: Aww I'm smiling at how it insisted on being a Penguin... did he have to Really Insist? Wondering if the two of you had quite a tussle over its emergence? Oops sorry Tracy, I said "he"
Tracy: We did. He was a Penguin, then a Crow, then the hand of a Crow with a knife in it when next to the other painting (not shown), and then a Penguin again. "He" is okay.
Kassi: Wow Penguin went through quite a process as he came in to Being
Tracy: he did
Kassi: Can I enquire about you and Penguin's "tussle" as he emerged? I get a sense of him kind of looking down slightly? I wonder if you sense his mood ?
Tracy: I think he's rather fed up. And tired.
Kassi: Poor Penguin... I wonder what he is fed up and tired with?
Tracy: It looks like he's been on a long journey, and isn't getting on so well with the Horned Beast. And he has the jawbone of an ass on his head.
Kassi: Penguin has a lot to deal with!?
Tracy: He does
Kassi: A Long Journey... do you get a sense of what it involved?
Tracy: Getting here, it's been a tricky journey. Travelling a long distance, learning lots of lessons the hard way, carrying too many heavy things.
Kassi: How does he feel now he has arrived here?
Tracy: Even though he's fed up, I think he will keep going, because the beast is also heading that way.
Kassi: My heart feels heavy for Penguin. So much to go through to reach his destination and learn some lessons. I get a feeling the Horned Beast is following Penguin? Hot on his heels?
Tracy: Or maybe the Penguin has been looking for the Horned Beast.
Kassi: Ah right... Penguin has been looking for the Horned Beast.
Tracy: I think they are a team, but have only just found each other again.
Kassi: ....a team. I wonder what it was like for the team to be separated?
Tracy: I think it's been tough, the Beast lost an eye and the Penguin doesn't feel great.
Kassi: Oh goodness... feels like it's been quite treacherous at times to lose an eye!
Tracy: It's been a rough time.
Kassi: It sounds rough
Tracy: But they look like they have something to do.
Kassi: I'm wondering if they need anything? Either of them?
Tracy: I think they're looking for something. The "lost" thing no doubt.
Kassi: Ah. They're both looking for the "lost thing"
Tracy: I think so
Kassi: Do they have a sense if they're going in the "right" direction?
Tracy: I think so. And it's interesting that it's in the opposite direction of the other two faces, one of who is crying about the lost thing.
Kassi: Yes, Very interesting...
Tracy: Perhaps the Penguin is fed up with the crying face, not the Beast after all.
Kassi: If we gave a voice to Penguin what might he say?
Tracy: Either way, I'm getting a sense of who these characters are now. Penguin would say: "Don't look back, we're going off to find the lost thing. It may take a little while, but the Beast is helping, and he's very tall and can see things from far away."
Kassi: Is this a positive thing for you Tracy to get a sense of the characters? I can see why Penguin and Beast are a great team
Tracy: Yes it is. Not all of my paintings make sense to me. This one was particularly confusing. I am going through quite a confusing time at the moment..
Kassi: I am sorry to hear you're going through a confusing time at present Tracy. I see you say this "was" confusing - so not quite so confusing now?
Tracy: It's making more sense now.
Kassi: And is that OK for you? To make more sense ?
Tracy: Yes, it helps. I've been talking with my Therapist about a missing part of me that I need to find again/allow to come back. I think that's the lost thing. I painted this before we had that talk, but I think it was my subconscious telling me I need to find something that was missing.
Kassi: Yes, that makes so much sense... How are you feeling right now Tracy? How is this for you?
Tracy: This is good. I feel good thank you.
Kassi: I am pleased to hear that Tracy. Before we bring this to a close, I wondered if I could acknowledge the Crying Face in your painting? Or would you rather not?
Tracy: It's me crying for the lost thing I think.
Kassi: Or perhaps there is another part of your painting you would like to acknowledge before we bring this to a close for today? Is it ok for me to say something more about your crying?
Kassi: I wanted to say that I noticed your crying face very early on when first Seeing your painting and I felt very tender towards the crying face. Your crying.
Tracy: Thank you Kassi.
Kassi: You're very welcome. I appreciate Penguin may feel fed up and has a big task ahead searching for the lost thing but I felt it is important to also acknowledge your crying too. I hope Penguin doesn't mind me feeling tender at the same time as realising he has an important task ahead.
Tracy: Thanks. I very much appreciate your words of support and your time and insight. It's been a very interesting exploration.
Kassi: You're welcome Tracy. I've really enjoyed getting to know your Painting so well. If we were to bring this to a close for now - is there anything your painting or you need to say first?
Tracy: No, thank you.
Kassi: If you would like to explore your painting any further please let me know Tracy. We can arrange this. How do you feel right now?
Tracy: Fine, thank you Kassi, glad to have come to more of an understanding of my painting.
Kassi: Great. I'm so glad. And you have your amazing resource of 'feeling empowered' to keep near you for any time you need it...
Tracy: Yes, thank you. I will remember that.
Kassi: Great! Thank you Tracy, take good care.
If you would like to find out more about Tracy and her wonderful work, here are her links below.
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Tracy Algar can be found here